have you ever feel like you lost someone when they're not even yours. for once, you feel like they're yours.
the way they talk to you. the way they act around you. the way they treat you.
but no, they're not yours. not even close. in fact, they don't even think you're important.
what hurt the most, they treat everyone else like that.
it hurt it does.
in the beginning, you know they're no good for you.
but you tell yourself maybe they're different. maybe they're nice.
so you tell yourself, lets give a try.
so you open up. you tell them all your flaws. all your insecurities.
and they seem to "accept" it. the way they care about you. the way they said they will always be there for you when you need them.
in the beginning, you try to deny everything you feel.
you don't want to get hurt. you keep telling yourself
"don't like them don't"
but as days go by, you cant help it any more.
you gave your heart.
hoping they'll give their's.
but what they do?
they crushed it.
as if it was nothing. as if you dont have feeling.
you cry every night hoping it was all just a dream.
hoping it would end. hoping time will help you heal it.
hoping that they will tell you, you're special.
hoping everything would change.
but the most important is,
you wish you didn't give your heart at the first place.
wishing you could undo everything. but it was too late, everything is too late.
you're hurt anyway.
maybe,
everything wouldn't be the same,
if you don't trust them from the beginning.
maybe,
you wouldn't get hurt,
if you guarded your heart well enough.
maybe,
you'll be happy,
if you were not stupid,
&
if you don't have heart at all.
you wait for them anyway. keep waiting. even though you know it'll hurt you.
don't come at all if you don't have any intention to stay.
please.
i'm not your five minutes cigarette breaks.